03-10-2004 - 7:09 p.m.
I honestly have so much to say, just don't feel like typing I guess. I've been super tired all week long due to my 5:45 am alarm, having to get to work an hour earlier, and then spending my entire morning locked in the smallest classroom in the world with 8 hormonal 7th graders watching them take standardized tests. It's a blast, let me tell you.
Saturday was a really fun "girls night out" with Jane, Kellie, Ellen, Katie, my sister, and me hitting up this St. Patrick's Day party at a bar by my house. (Yeah, they're a tad bit early in the celebrating this year.) We had a blast drinking and dancing all night, and I accidentally met a guy when my drunken asshole persona took over and I just busted up to him and started making fun of him and his friend. He was nice enough, and we talked for a bit until Britney Spears "Toxic" came on, at which point I totally ditched him to go dance. He wound up talking to my sister for the rest of the night, and I was just kind of like "oh well" because even though he was cute, nice, and friendly there was something about him that kind of reminded me of my uncle.
Later I found out that he could freaking BE my uncle! He's turning 32 this month, and at this point in my life a nearly 1 decade age difference just doesn't cut it. I also came to discover that while he was talking to my sister all night they were actually talking about me. At the end of the night he asked for my number, and since I'm on this handing-out-my-number-to-every-random-person streak I gave it to him. (I really need to get those One Call Away business cards printed up so I can be as smooth as Chingy when passing off my digits.) At the moment it was flattering and I hoped he'd call, but once the alcohol wore off and reality set in I kind of starting hoping he wouldn't.
And then he did.
I didn't pick up the phone and I literally gasped at how dorky he sounded on my voicemail. He's cute, in shape (he's a personal trainer!), tall, sweet, so what the hell's my problem???
Let me break it down...
1. Jane is just too wise: 31 year olds aren't looking for a girl to hang out with, they're looking for a WIFE. Ewwwwwwwwwww.... I'm convulsing as I type.
2. The whole "reminds me of my uncle" thing is just NASTY.
3. He's everything I should want in a guy, yet nothing that I find actually attractive. And by "attractive" I mean butterflies in my stomache when he smiles at me. He's the "perfect" guy in terms of what everyone else (aka my family) wants me to have, unfortunately he's not the perfect guy for me.
Now, I realize I sound a tad psycho since I'm talking about this guy as if he wants to date me. It's not that I think that at all, it's just that I'm going through this really confusing time right now as far as males are concerned. (Oh wait, hasn't that "confused about males" phase been going on for way too many years???) I'm just not getting it. Men of the world, What the fuck do you want from me??? Please tell me, cause I'm totally not getting it on my own.
So yeah, I don't think he's getting a call back. Are my standards too high? Am I just way too picky? I don't believe either theory... I just know what I want.
On a lighter note, I got strip searched at CVS yesterday. I kept setting off the store alarm when I walked out so one by one they took various items off my person to find out why I was setting it off. First my store bag. Then my purse. Then I had to empty my coat pockets, which just so happened to contain energy pills which the bitch face manager then thought I'd stolen. Then it was my work ID they took. Then my coat had to come off. Then she had me turn out the pockets of my skirt and she looked at my shoes. I patted myself down to prove I had nothing on me even though everytime she made me walk through I continued to set off the alarm. Finally, she decided to "let me go", she gave me all my shit back, and when I left the store... the goddamn alarm did NOT go off!!!!
However, I can't show my face in that store again. There were just way too many employees staring at me.
I have many song obsessions at the moment. Mario Winans and P. Diddy I Don't Want to Know is just awesome. Hey Mama by the Black Eyed Peas is a really fun shake your ass song, not to mention that I'm so impressed with the entire group's dancing skillzzzz in the video. But my absolute favorite song right now is If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys. It's really just a beautiful song, and she somehow makes that old school sound totally work for her. Plus, the video brought tears to my eyes (who knew Method Man's acting could???) I can't wait to see her perform this song live in 2 weeks!!!
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you...
