05-09-2004 - 8:49 p.m.
Patience is a virtue, or so they say. Lately I'm getting the biggest test of my patience of my entire life. I'm always so anxious for things to happen that I totally freak out if there's not instant gratification. But in the past week or so, I've had a change of heart and decided to take things one day at a time. One very long, slow day at at time, but one day nonetheless.
Hopefully one day I'll be rewarded for my patience :o)
I just have this feeling that there's this sort of changing of gears going on in my life. One chapter is totally coming to an end this week and I'm completely optimistic that another one that's a hell of a lot better is about to begin. But, because of this damn "patience" shit, I just have to wait it out and see.
There are only 28 more days of school left!!! Of course I love my job dearly, but who can help themselves from counting down the days till summer vacation? 28 days is nothing! That's a menstrual cycle, for God's sake!
I'm totally looking forward to this summer. I always rush into the summer completely convinced that this will be the year I'll do something great, make something positive happen in my life. Of course we all know that never happens, but still I'll keep on dreaming.
On Tuesday I turn 23. Totally dreading it. Birthdays are just a great big reminder of how little I've accomplished in my lifetime. I mean, you'd think I'd be able to do something exciting, or noteworthy or even freaking right in a 23 year span of time, but... nope.
What a milestone to celebrate!
