07-16-2004 - 2:34 p.m.
So after making a complete ass of myself last Saturday night and sweating all week about having to see my boy again at work, he actually talked to me last night. Which was a huuuuuuuuuuuuge relief and totally made my night. Then... miracle of miracles, he called me after work and we watched a movie together! He had the balls to call me woo hoo!!! Of course this was after I explicitly said "If you want to hang out call me" when I was leaving work, since I've come to realize that boys need some prodding. They don't come up with any ideas on their own. I'm still totally psyched that we actually got to hang out where both of us were completely sober.
Now... for the downside of it all. (Come on, you didn't think things worked out perfectly, did you???)
1. He's totally a grump when not drunk. And since he's on this 2 week "I'm not drinking" spree (because he's a raging alcoholic that blacks out like 3 to 4 times a week) he's like super grumpy times 10. For example, he calls and asks if I want to come over. Then the whole time I'm there, he acts like he's totally bothered by my presence. No, more like he's bothered by the presence of the entire freaking world around him! My advice? Fuck your liver, go have a drink and then call me!
2. This boy has NO game. And as we all know, I have NO game. So us hanging out together is like the freaking No Game Olympic finals. Sadly, I think he's winning (meaning I have more game) which is just totally tragic.
3. Because of the aforementioned battle of the non-game, NOTHING happened! I even wore the cutest underwear! What a waste of laundry!!! How, dear friends, do two people who have hooked up on a few previous occasions hang out together lying on a bed in a dark room watching a movie and not even kiss??? This is just absolutely appalling!!! People with no game should not be allowed to hang out with others with the same affliction. You just never get anywhere!
Despite all this, I still have my little crush. Perhaps my friend Steve was right when he said "Nicole, you have the most fucked up way of looking at guys."
Judging by my track record, I totally do.
