03-27-2005 - 10:31 p.m.
Well, here I am. Finally back to D-land after almost a month long hiatus. There's always so much to write, just not enough time to write it in.
Ahead of me looms an entire week of no work, which to most people would be rather exciting. Not to me. Nope, not exciting in the least. Whenever I have long periods of time off (thank you Lord for this blessed teacher's schedule) my father has off from work as well. Which basically means I never end up doing what I want to do, and I get sucked into doing lame ass things with my dad. Not that there's anything wrong with spending quality time with the 'rents (I mean, they did after all give me my life, I suppose some gratitude is in order) but when you're 23 years old you just don't get that jazzed about spending an entire week doing buddy activities with father dearest. It gets old after about the first half a day. So basically, I'd rather be heading to work at 8:00 am tomorrow.
Besides this dilemma, things of have been sort of kind of a little tiny bit looking up for dear old Miss Niza. I'm not gonna go all out and say they've been completely looking up because then I know that statement would definitely come back to bite me in the ass. Anyways, I've been having fun, doing my thing, and not worrying myself sick over the lame ass boy I've been trying to win back for all these months. So what brought on this newfound I'm Fabulous-ness? A few factors...
#1- A Real Live Date
Yes, a boy took me on a date. And paid. And then called me the next day to see if I wanted to hang out again. Amazing huh? But totally true, I swear. We went out for drinks and had an amazing time just chatting and people watching and cracking up. I really had a great time, and it was so incredibly nice to have positive male attention bestowed upon me. I'd actually forgotten I was worthy of it. The only problem? Despite enjoying myself immensely, I didn't feel all that attracted to him. Like, I loved hanging out with him but didn't really find myself wanting to hook up with him all that badly despite having consumed a good amount of alcohol and not having been with anyone for a while. He definitely struck me as someone I'd deem a "friend", but I'm giving him another shot because let's be honest, no one else is beating down my door.
#2- Getting All Sorts of Glam
The night after my date, I found myself getting all decked out to attend my very first Black Tie function of my adulthood. As if my self esteem wasn't already soaring from having a man show a remote interest in me, I discovered that dressing up in a BCBG black cocktail dress with totally blinged out diamond jewelry (borrowed from Mom, of course) and killer black stilettos is the best thing a girl can do for a little ego boost. In that one night, I recieved more male attention than I have in the past year. The best was when my sister and I were walking back to our hotel in the freezing cold in the middle of Philadelphia at 2:30 in the morning. In the course of one city block we had 3 amazing encounters with men. First, this black guy starts yelling "Girls, where are the men that should be giving you their jackets??? Ya'll need a cab??? I'm gonna hail ya'll a cab!" Kind of creepy, but rather nice that he was going to get us a taxi. Then another black dude looking a tad bit homeless says "Hey ladies, I've got some weed and a coat you can borrow too! I wanna smoke a blunt with you!" Awwww. How many homeless men have offered to share their weed supply with you? Then finally, at a red light this man jumps out of the passenger's seat of a car, comes running around to the side of the street we were walking down and starts going "Where were you girls tonight? You look gorgeous! Do you want to come hang out with me and my friends?" Again, creepy, and not a pickup tactic I'd recommend, but rather cool that with my sister's help I was able to inspire a Chinese Fire Drill.
#3- Reading an Ingenious Book
I've been hearing all sorts of buzz for months about this book, so I finally broke down and bought "He's Just Not That Into You". I haven't read the entire thing yet, but I have to say it's really the most profound, logical, and glaringly obvious relationship advice ever given. But, girls (myself included) are just too dumb to think of it themselves. Basically, this book takes every single excuse a woman has ever given for a guy not calling (he's really busy, he travels alot, he's going through a rough time, he's not into the term "boyfriend", he just got out of a relationship, he lost my number, etc.) and shoots it down with the basic premise that the guy just really isn't that into you. Pretty much, if a guy is into you he'll go out of his way to call, to hang out, and all that other fun stuff. And they basically tell you not to settle for the bullshit because the more time you waste with someone that's not into you, it's less time you have to be out looking for someone who totally is. This book rocks!
So yeah, I'm trying to enjoy life a little more. Trying to be more comfortable in my own skin rather than wasting time wishing I was in someone else's. And I have to say, so far it's pretty fun!
